CODSWALLOP

A nameless regret resides in my troubled heart,

A ceaseless pang on pain batters me every second,

I think I can name the loss of my happiness shirt,

But it eludes me and my imagination, I can’t pretend.

Stormy nights encompass my shadow world,

I will sail the sea of nothingness for eternity,

Thoughts sway inside me, leading to inferiority complex,

I want to get away from my blessed fraternity.

I have a world free of worldly sorrows and desire,

To roam in it, to my heart’s content is a dream,

To feel the joys of love and kindness is like a barbed wire,

The tighter you grasp, the deeper it cuts, inviting a scream.

My loss is someone else’s gain, someone worthier,

I can not decide which aspect of it to elude,

Every second it cuts into me, like flesh on fire, but swarthier,

The reason is obvious, I though lament it, never come to conclude.

People say I am talented, full of vital energy,

I see them, I know I am different from all,

I pray I come out in flying colors and a renewed synergy,

But all determination ,ultimately fails, triggering a fall!!!