30^th June, 2010.

CONTROL

I am happier than I ever was, in the past two months,

I now have a firm hold on the hose of my emotions,

Slow and steady I found a way back,

I learnt to promote my happiness, grief has had a demotion.

At last I have a strict rule over myself,

I am not a toy that everyone would play and discard,

Wasted are my days in regret and darkness that God himself-

Cannot forgive, so who am I to show any regard?

This is me, taking back control, taking what I need,

My shadowy world has been pushed near extinction,

I am not a muddy, wet and slimy weed,

Even they are useful in some, worthy implementation.

This is me, taking what I deserve, back from all,

From hurting and pain inflicting best-friends, from a selfish family,

I can smell the burning of my inside, it’s a positive call,

I do not find it necessary to appreciate hands that are oily.

I wrest my control back, from inhuman expectations,

From brain-storming thoughts, explicit excruciating pain,

From dishonest and faltering words, from baseless allegations.

I wrest my control back, this will be my greatest gain.

I learned a lot this time, my heart told me to endure,

Detaching mind from the heart, its horrible, to out-smart,

Control was indeed difficult to gain, to bear,

Finally I succumb to my conscience, with a mighty weight on my heart.